I Loved You

One winter morning I woke up to see...
Beauty bathed in wine,and dew dripping from her hair,
Her elegant smile,warmth of her love,
Refreshed me always,like a fresh blooming bud...

Hugged her for life,kissed on her lips,
Innocent of all decisions that I was about to take.
Her wet body with my warm one,
Kissed my chest,whispered "thanx a lot,sweetheart"...

A million words unsaid,unspoke,since that day,
Wedding ring shinning,memories flashing by.
That bugging thought "loyalty a lie,sacrifice the test...
Hatred is love,just at its best..."

It's selfish of me to break all promises,
To leave unfulfiled those dreams,we dreamed together,
But I'll have to leave her for EVER,forever,
May be a cheater,a hatred,a loser,a liar...

Yes,a loser,I lost against life,
Yes,a liar,I promised you company for ever
Its hard to realize,"Its the last day of your life"
Before tomorrow's dawn,I'll be dead,"a day back"...

The Dance in The Rain

Friendship growing in those dark silent alleys
Wet walls,damped ground,
It was cold and I was shivering,
But as I returned to sanity,felt the warmth.

It wasn't the sun,shinning too high;
Nor lit up fire,
A warmth of love,of care,
It was what kept me going for ever,ever...

From summer middays to frozen winter nights...,
In ups and downs,
In rolling down tears;
You made me win battles I lost before years..

The azure moon shone where the way ended;
We ran madly,
through ways we never knew;
Nothing could stop us,as we held the other's hand.

It started raining,dark evening,murky sky,
I held your hand,
Ran out of the shade;
And then the best moments,"The dance in the rain"...

That Last Meeting

(dedicated to that evening at my place before you left,our emotions,tears,promises,rememberences,love,friendship, thoughts,care,feelings,strength,weakness for each other)



In my blurred vision I saw u smile,
But I knew,it was fake;
A last chance to make things fine,
You fought a lost battle to hide your tears

I couldnot help but to cry like a kid,
Clasping your hand tight;
You embraced me,gave me a hug,
In your arms I felt lyk being in heaven...

The storm outside was no greater than the in
Tears flowed like rain;
Could not let u go from my arms,
Windy dusk changed to purple cloudy gloom

Memories of the past times I spent with you...
Those shared thoughts...
Those emotions we had for the other...
Your teary eyes,trembling lips had never been better

...And you left,trying hard to draw a smile,
To make me feel you are here;
But I knew,before tomorrow's sun,
My buddy would be leaving me ,already gone...

Are You Gone????

Its tough 2 say goodbye...
But how,when u get one??
Wish it was a stronger tie...
Wish u had never ever gone

A sense of belonging,sharing the deepest thought..
Midnight long past,its almost dawn
Remembering those battles we ever fought
Losing sense of time,till u are gone


Wish I cud say"please stay back"
Cudn't u hear,deep inside i shouted
Voice was all that was a lack....
Weren't u supposed 2 know what i wanted?


So happy was I realizing friendship
Millions of thought,but all were dues,
Everything crashed with silently pressed lip
All in a goodbye,said by u...


Don't leave me alone cried the kid..
But by then u have already gone
UR memories,thoughts and what I did..
Welcoming lonely,the cool Grey dawn...

Those Frozen Dreams....

It was on a chilling,crazy winter night
Sitting by the road,clutching my fingers tight
Realized,I have a dream,needed to fight...
It was too late,time already took the flight..

When nights were long and dreams were few,
I sat by window,whispered"wish it was true",
A silent whisper,a crashing dream,a frozen tear
With all my heart,I wish I was there.........

"Don't compromise yourself,u are all u have got"
Is this what, for which I have fought???
Those glimpses of dreams that I have caught
"compromise" and "moving on" is what time has taught..

Its really painful when all those dreams shatter
They had been for ma a lyftym treasure...
Is it dreaming or fulfilling them that matter?
Thatz the reason,tears in my eyes glitter.....

Dreams of winter crashed on that summer....
all it ended in was my small mummer
I wept alone with none to care.....
Unfulfilled dreams became nightmare.....

I already knew nxt 4 yrs gonna b hell
But with whom I'd have shared my tale?
Winds already puffed in,lyf ahead is a sail..
tears in eyes,smile on lips,A vain distant wail....

Every single night I can't help but to cry..
"I'm happy,laughing" to myself I lie..
Can u give another try to that teen???
Now I know,watz shattering of dreams mean.....

Someday i'll have all but those I cherished,
Those hopes unfulfilled,leaving dreams vanished....
Money,name,fame....what about those I wanted...??
All stared at me,all eyes astounded....


I want to flee and hide in the past...
"I'll make things better"-this u can trust
It's like the stars and all clouds cast......
"Your shine doesn't matter"...came out at last....